Dancing With Cappuccino

By Michael Q. Pink

February 18, 2010

OK… Listen up my dear friends… You know what I have been through the last few months. The flight that was my life started losing altitude in November, crash landing on January 13th with the loss of the woman that meant everything to me. Then came the struggle for me to get out of the craft before it burst into flames and consumed me totally.

Getting out of the wreckage is not easy, as you first of all are in shock by what just happened, and that you somehow are still standing, albeit in a pile of rubble that used to be your life. The rubble is not the hard part. All that, can and will be rebuilt better, stronger and more enduring. The hard part was losing what was precious and irreplaceable.

Coming to terms with that and beginning to heal is the challenge. Until you face full on and come to terms with the loss, you will never heal well. Yesterday, in very private and personal ways, I came to terms with that loss. I wore my lungs out … and my voice. I let it all out until there was no more to let out. Then I sat down, and asked God to speak Truth to me. He did. What He spoke to me about His love, freed me from the need to find that love in another person. Believe me when I tell you… that is very liberating! It frees you to have healthy, loving relationships that thrive in an atmosphere of joy vs. need based, conditional relationships that withdraw more than they deposit.

Greek DancerSo last night I went to dinner with a very special friend. It was the Greek restaurant Acropolis in Ybor City, Florida. What a fun place! Greek music. Greek folk dancing. Had a blast! I was so aware of the pain being gone from within me, it was all I could do to not get up and dance with the folk dancers! I was having fun and it felt great! But would it still be there in the morning?

A resounding YES! I woke up at 4:44 AM today and felt great. Something big had truly happened inside me. My circumstances hadn’t changed a bit, but my perspective had. My pain was gone! I’ll be tender for awhile, but man o man, admitting and facing the pain and then allowing God to speak to that pain and heal it, is indescribably exhilarating. I found myself dancing in the kitchen while making me a triple cappuccino with French Vanilla creamer and a dusting of cinnamon this morning! (My friends call it MikeBucks)

I put on my favorite worship music and opened an email from Neill Newton, chairman and founder of Global Flying Hospitals  one of the most visionary men of our time with a mission worth supporting if you possibly can. His words to me confirmed what God had been saying to me. It’s time to move into STRENGTH. I did what I promised myself I would do… I grieved deeply! But I also promised I would not grieve endlessly. My season of DEEP grief is over. No doubt, I will be tender for awhile, but I am no longer in critical care. I was released yesterday.

Now it is time to lead … to step into the new thing. I will tell you more about that in upcoming blogs but let me tell you something I believe God finally answered for me… I had often wondered why I would blog to you during the trial of my life… why I would share my losses, my pains and my personal victories. Why go to that effort? Why take that risk?

I really didn’t know the answer except to say that I felt God’s great pleasure when I did. Today, He told me more about that. He is taking me down a path of freedom this year in areas of finance and business and He is going to invite you to come along with me. My life will be a living example of rebuilding from the ashes. Many of you are in that place and you will be invited to come along with me. Any takers? Let’s take back our lives, our vision, our destiny and possess the gates of our enemies in 2010!

Special thanks to my incredible friend, Joe Johnson, for taking me out last night to that Greek restaurant. You are a rare friend Joe and I love you and Lindsay beyond words!

FINAL NOTE: At the top right hand of the home page you will see a video of the talk I gave at the KEYS 2010 conference. It was called, Let The Up Rising Begin. It’s free. Watch it now. I don’t plan on leaving it up a long time.

Keywords: freedom, grief, healing, loss, posses the gates, shock, struggle
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the joy of the lord is your strength ( holy spirit ) = joy it is not just joy happy happy joy it is the lords strength ! he has already empowered you to come through all of this and so just keep praying in the heavenly language that is jesus praying through you our intercessor to the father ! and know you will teach others how so see the love of your life go to heaven but at the same time she is gods daughter and he called for such a time as this and takes this for us to be able to see lives changed through our tears through our fire ! wowo what a minstry breaking forth in your life greater glory ! and dancing will keep the joy increasing just dance rejoice for the joy of the lord is your strength ! it is god empowering you to come out IN VICTORY !
diana shepard at 10:31am EST - February 18, 2010
I love that the Lord woke you up at 4: 44 a.m.! In Biblical dream interpretation, the number 4 can represent ruling, reigning, and God's creative miracles (because God created the sun to rule over the day and moon and stars to rule over the night on the 4th day). I also love Eze. 44: 4 which says, "Then He brought me by way of the north gate to the front of the house; and I looked, and behold, the glory of the Lord filled the house of the Lord, and I fell on my face." This is truly a new day for you, Michael! God is doing a creative work in your life and bringing you into a new position of authority where you will rule and reign with Him as you stay seated with Him in heavenly places. You are being changed from glory to glory. Thank you for sharing this journey with us!
Susan at 10:37am EST - February 18, 2010
Mike; You're learning a truth that I learned years ago when I lost everything I had ; including the faithful friends and family that had surrounded me; I found myself alone and without support save Jesus; and HE is enough. During that time I found this incredible TRUTH; Pain is enevitable - but suffering is optional!
Leonard at 10:46am EST - February 18, 2010
Michael,Isn't it wonderful that not only can we learn to breathe again, but then we get to learn to dance again! God's healing power and His promise of restoration are such gifts to us in life that we can never lose hope! You are a gift to those who know you and are watching God work in such powerful ways in your life! Don't stop dancing now!blessings,Sherron
sherron lane at 10:48am EST - February 18, 2010
Hi Michael, I just want to thank you for writing , it helps me so much. I know our battles are much different, but all the same, yesterday was a defining day for me as well in fighting for my health against Lymes disease. I had a dear friend who I had not talked to in over a year call me up and she reminded me of my calling. I cried out to Jesus for my healing and for His help and I began to get so excited ! I wanted you to know how much of a help and encouragment you are to me. We love you and are praying for you.
Lori B. at 11:31am EST - February 18, 2010
Yes and Amen! We are praising God for His answers to you and to us! Trials are simply God polishing His gold, not ever "fun" but oh the brilliance He reveals. Save these moments in your heart Brother, and when you start to feel yourself challenged again, you can look back and know there is strength to be had through Him and Him alone. Thank you Michael for sharing your story
Bonnie at 11:38am EST - February 18, 2010
Michael,Thank you, and thank God for such witness and testimony! In 1978 I lived through a comparable situation, except that help/love/spiritual support were almost non-existent. But our God was faithful. He is faithful now, and will always be.I pray rich blessing on you and on your associates as you move on in HIS battle plan. May His peace, love and joy fill and overflow you always.Our UPRISING as Christ's Body will be built through such faith, commitment and perseverance as yours. Yes, it is by His grace - because you were, and are willing. Please accept honorary adoption into the LINDSAY clan - for our motto has long been ENDURE FORT -- (french) ENDURE IN STRENGTH.
Raylyn Terrell at 11:45am EST - February 18, 2010
Thank you thank you thank you yet again Michael! Thank you for the incredible blessing you've been as you've blogged about your life. You may have no idea until you get to heaven, how much you have blessed so many people.And thank you, God - we've been praying for your joy Michael. 4:44 has been so important to me the last few years, even though I don't know why yet....Thank you again, friend.
Deborah at 12:04pm EST - February 18, 2010
Brother Micaheal,While watching you share your lifes story at the network it gave me such strentgh to pursue a thing that the Lord told me to do. I lost my job of 11.5 years through false accusations and discrimination. I have forgiven ,but did not really allow healing from the loss until watching and really hearing the Spirit of the LOrd speak through your deep heart felt expression of your loss, Brenda. I don't dare compare a wife with the loss of a job. The people on my job had become family because I saw them more than my own family. We built meaningful relationships, my team members started calling me Mom. I helped them as if they were my children, telling them about the Lord, discipling them, praying for them. So when I was suddenly separted from them from a false accusation and wrongful driscrimination, my heart was wounded deeply. I still often asked and pray for them, but it is now time to heal. I am on a path to pursue justice in court for discrimantion because many there are working under ungodly conditions, discrimative and unlawful relations withe this employer through fear of retailation if they speak out against for justice. I have nothing to fear any longer because I was suddenly pulled out of the Bablyonian system to be plugged into the Kingdom. I depend on God totally for everyting now. Thank you again for sharing your story because up to this point today I have procrastinated in making a call to EEOC to purse the things that God has spoken.BUT....after hearing your heart and the Spirit of the Lord speak through it, I have grieved and weep outwardly. I was able to release vocally and through tears what words cannot express. Theres still more there, but boy does it feel good to let it out!!!!!!!!!!Now I can at least start to pickup the peices and move on with my life by making the workplace enviroment better. We announce to principalites and powers that the marketplace is King Jesus's domain and we now take it by force.Micheal in your weakness you have allowed the Lord to use you as a great strength to many. Jesus is my Champion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But you are one of my heros.Priscilla
Priscilla Mitchell at 12:51pm EST - February 18, 2010
Very inspiring. Watched your video. It imparted something very valuable that I needed to apply to my life. Thank you...carole
Carole Pigeon at 12:51pm EST - February 18, 2010
"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?" "Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real." "Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit. "Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt." "Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?" "It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in your joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand." YBIC ricky
ricky at 1:00pm EST - February 18, 2010
Thank you Michael so much for sharing the video of you speaking at the conference. I was so blessed.
Yvonne C. Hyde at 7:16pm EST - February 18, 2010
AMEN!! Thank you so much...I agree with you Micheal...LET THE UPRISING BEGIN!!! Praise the Lord! Hallelujah! Whooo hooo!!!! Thank you JESUS!!
Vilma at 7:47pm EST - February 18, 2010
Thank you Michael for sharing this. God is beyond cool! There really is One Good Shepherd and One Body of Christ. It's amazing to see Him doing similar things for His people at the the same time. I had a MAJOR RELEASE, as for as my healing went of the breakup of an old relationship today. It's THE BEST of I've felt in months! What God did for you yesterday, He did for me today. It's amazing God moves at the same time in peoples lives! WOW! THANK YOU JESUS!
Micah at 12:39am EST - February 19, 2010
Thank you thank you, Michael. I am in tears after reading your blog and watching the message you graciously posted for us on your homepage. The awesomeness and tenderness of God through you is overwhelming. You are a valiant one. Be blessed!
Pamela Denlinger at 8:31am EST - February 19, 2010
My life is now changed after watching the video from the conference. No more self-pity. I will redeem the pain and embrace the opportunity that comes through adversity. I will seek the treasures that can only be found in the darkness. Thank you Michael.
Robin Worline at 9:39am EST - February 19, 2010
Your testimony at the KEYS 2010 has risen us up We have been commissioned to take hold of that which the Lord has released.Being there when you spoke was a clear high point in my life....You model Christ to me Blaze On Brother Michael
tony mammen john at 10:04pm EST - February 19, 2010
Mike...What a breakthrough! Your's was much faster than mine...but was somewhat similar! One cannot continue in that 'deep' grief for any length of time as it wears on the body and soul. God was so faithful to me,...listening to my groans and weeping, all the while wrapping me in His loving arms. And yes, He does have plans for our future, we can be sure of that! I must caution you however, that grief is unpredictable, therefore understand that there will be times when it will strike you without warning, but that is the nature of this journey. We pick ourselves up and go forth in God's strength. It has been 2 1/2 years for me, and while my life is submitting to my 'new normal', I still have moments. This is not weakness, it is merely allowing God to do His awesome work. Take care and God bless you as you continue your journey. Claudia
Claudia at 1:00pm EST - February 20, 2010
Thank you so much for your sharing your pain and grief. Many of us who are seeking to walk closer with our Lord have experienced many similar crushing losses in our collective lives, and while I, for one do understand the process that God uses in our lives to grow and stregthen us, it makes it somewhat easier to walk through as others as you take time to share with us. Thank you and you are in mine and my wife's prayers.
Samuel Bowers at 4:25pm EST - February 22, 2010
I've been to that restaurant!! hahaha!!! It is a blast and the food is awesome!!! I'm so glad you enjoyed it and are feeling better. Love you Micheal
Brian Font at 4:30pm EST - February 23, 2010
Something good is going to happen, Michael!...and I anticipate that with excitement...yep, as His warriors let us take 2010 for His glory in His marketplace!Serving with you,Benjie@Manila
Benjie B. Caballero at 12:01am EST - March 3, 2010
It wasn't God who took your wife.. We have an enemy who comes to kill, steal and destroy. God allows this because of sin in our lives and our lack of wisdom. We have to change and become more and more like JESUS, not like the world. We are warriors that don't know how to fight. Everything that is not of God is a lie. There is no truth in this world except JESUS. At the Cross Jesus gave us back everything the devil has stolen, but that too is a choice.
A at 10:17am EST - March 7, 2010
Read over this blog again and you will see that you are being carefully groomed for the upcoming "IT FINALLY HAPPENED' The words are all in place and you are being slowly led to the prelude of what's to come.
Connie C at 5:23pm EST - March 12, 2010
Wow Connie - it is so hard for me to understand why this matters so much to you personally. You seem to be putting a lot of energy and time into searching for clues and speculating. Michael had not even met Judy at the time he wrote this message. He was truly speaking of an enormous healing that God did in him and how it made him want to celebrate. Why can't you believe that and be happy about it. Doesn't God do great things for you?
Cheryl Clunk at 5:43pm EST - March 12, 2010


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